Thinking over the topic of my previous post, I've realised that worrying about what my next career step will be is a great thing.
2 and a half years ago when I was diagnosed I thought my future was over and anytime I thought about anything past 'tomorrow' I started to panic. This lasted a long time, and then sort of morphed into an attitude of 'nothing really matters, I'm just going to try and enjoy myself because who knows how long I will have to do these things'. Now my mindset seems to have changed again, and I am thinking about where I'm going with my life and my career and making goals for myself.
It means I must think that there is a point in planning for the future. What a turnaround, and despite the flare I had a couple of months ago! It's happened so slowly that I've barely noticed. I have no idea what I'm going to end up doing but just the knowledge that I am capable of thinking positively for the future and making plans now makes me happy.