Blog guilt

Ok, im gonna have to admit it. I've been a crap blogger lately. I think I've written about 3 entries since Spring. And the reason is pretty weak... I've not been blogging because I've been feeling really really well. That's terrible isn't it? We always moan that people who start to feel better distance themselves from the online community and stop participating and therefore there is this one-sided representation of RA online, which tends to be on the gloomy side. I was desperate to find upbeat stories when i first got diagnosed and I found very few. I vowed that if I got better I would keep writing. And here I am, going completely against that. I'm being selfish. I guess there are two parts to this, or maybe three. First of all, I don't feel comfortable writing big long posts about how great everything is when I know others are suffering. Secondly, I'm just out and enjoying life the way I never thought I would again and last but not least, I don't want to 'jinx' myself by writing a big post about how great I feel when it could all turn around at any minute! But there's no denying it - I feel fantastic. This whole year has been awesome, especially the last 5 months. I don't know if it's a natural remission or the hydroxychloroquine doing something.. I have a couple of wee symptoms now and then but basically I feel normal. It's my 2 year RAnniversary next week and honestly, 2 years ago I never thought i'd be living a life 'free' of RA. But I am. So I don't know if anyone wants to hear about my lovely life just now or if it'll just make people feel like crap?! But I will try to write a few posts in the next couple of weeks and maybe put a positive story out there for someone who's searching for it... because it turns out happy stories do exist with RA. :)